bottled up tight

there's something about the empty midnight freeway that compares to absolutely nothing else
there's a thrill of driving so fast that you feel the wind rustling through your hair and breathing life back into you
because there is no one on the road you can close your eyes for just a quick second
just one second to breathe in the beauty of this untouchable moment that no one can interrupt or take away from you
it's a feeling of oneness with yourself and with the world
driving down the vacant highways i never felt so acceptant of my beautiful mess of a life
the music plays loud enough that nothing else matters but i can still hear my thoughts
for those remaining minutes my soul is overwhelmed with a heavenly peace

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when it comes to moments that beat ones like this, i'm stumped


Bottled Up Tight- Luke Sital-Singh
(one of the magical tunes that accompany me)

some rules for this summer

i've decided to make a list of some things I think this summer should consist of, being that last summer was one hell of a mess for me-- i want to make this one good. 

1) go on a roadtrip -- anywhere, up the coast, somewhere new, just get a change of scenery & take it all in.

2) hangout with people that make you laugh, think, and want to change. i know this sounds self-explanatory but with everyone coming home from college there's a huge pressure to feel obligated to rekindle old friendships that maybe you have no interest in rekindling with. i encourage you to only surround yourself with people that challenge you and do life the same way you do.

3) go do things in the wee hours of the night. the wildest things happen when the sun goes down! my suggestion would be drive your ass down to the beach, take off your clothes, and go swimming. nothing sounds more exhilarating. 

4) talk to random people. if there's anything i've learned about living in a new place with no friends around it's  to be as friendly and open as possible, you never know what cool people are around you. 

5) pick up a new habit or activity. for me, this summer i've been getting into yoga and journaling/drawing.

6. i say this a little too often but spend time alone! summer time can be weird because you are going back to maybe an old way of living, with your old friends in your hometown and it might feel odd. i think spending some time alone and trying to make sense of the growing and changing you are doing is crucial. you will get to know yourself better!

7. don't succumb to the pressure of having that bikini ready body! good god how i hate that unspoken (& spoken) pressure of not looking or feeling good enough. sometimes all it takes is a conscious mental decision to ignore those thoughts, tell yourself you're hot, and not worry about what people think.

8) don't be afraid to tell people what you really think. summer is only a couple months so make the most of it. i don't mean have a bunch of summer flings or hookups with people but if someone is special to you, don't stay silent about it for too long or you might miss your chance.

9). get a lot of sun, embrace beach hair as much as possible, and for girls, why not go for that all natural no makeup, no bra lifestyle?!

10) learn to make a couple drinks here and there and get a little tipsy sometimes! 

OH, and make a bucket list of all the fun things you wanna do this summer.

don't feel bound to it, but try to follow it and live it up as much as you can!

hats off to summer twenty fourteen, man i hope it's a good one. 

under the same sun

it's been awhile since I've updated my blog, my apologies!!!
it's been a crazy couple months finishing up school but I can proudly say with a sigh of relief that school's out for summer!!!!
what an amazing year it was but boy am i giddy to be home for the summer.
here's a little photo update on the past two weeks of my summa!

 1. first time at Incahoots to finish off the year!

 2. my amazing roomies visiting me for the weekend!



















3. decorating my new room a bit!

 4. my new go to coffee shop, Alta.

5. morning runs on beach will never get old!

6. too obsessed with Lemonade!!

8. one of my favorite new CM spots called the mix!

 9. bike rides with kristy, so glad she's home!

10.  Alta coffee on a ridiculously hot day

 11. New juice bar i found called Birdie in CM!

 12. Bianca came out for the day, we got a whole lotta sun!

 13. nuff' said.

 14. she's a beaut.

 15.  i have the prettiest friends!

 16. Eat Chow-- yummy new restaurant in newport!

17. can't forget my embarrassing mother snapping a picture of me at my new job at Urban!!

"My table is dirty,

My socks are filthy,

My heart is battered,

Because i am alive

And I choose to feel."

-Scott Jacob 

the spoon & the fork

some people you will meet in life will be one with the current
traveling whichever way the world sways them
swallowing up all that earthly desires have to offer, until their stomaches ache with dissatisfaction and identity crisis
these people consume all that the world provides until they are fully saturated in it
their curvature is easy and will adjust to anything around them

others in life are the ones making marks in everything they do and encounter
these people approach the world with cautionary measures yet influence and affect anything and anyone they invest in
they are not apart of the world-- but they desire to transform it
they remain steadfast and firm in shape, not conforming to whatever ground they "stick" themselves in

march update

 1. Rogues & Ghetto Blaster$ house house in La Mirada! so much talent!

2. celebrating the Iranian New Year in Newport shore with the family! oh so classy

 3. exploring the beautiful Pasadena on a sunny day!

4. getting back into the swing of being back at school from break!

5. thursday nights are for cigars & conversations

 6. delicious Kanpai Sushi to celebrate finishing off the week!

7. soakin' up the sun in peace at my favorite park

Black Flies

Ben Howard-- "Black Flies"

"And I don't wanna beg your pardon
And I don't wanna ask you why
But if I was to go my own way
Would I have to pass you by?"